Post by Tulonasigo on Mar 16, 2018 7:26:06 GMT
Hello Risen Revolution!
I felt this should be a bit more formal than my usual updates. All humor aside, I should probably make a statement.
As many of you know, or at least some of you, Risen Revolution was a group made back in 2014 after the drafting of Red ReVerence. I had to create Risen Revolution in order to keep the community up, to surpass the judgement of previous staff and to avoid conflict. I could not and was no longer allowed to run Red ReVerence due to a problem with staff.
After I created Risen Revolution, everything was how I pictured it. Many of you may have known me as Thanatos, a name that was thoughtfully recognized back then. However, due to my negligence of the group and leaving it in the hands of the rest of my staff, the group spiraled into nothingness. I remained as a site administrator for a long time, not bothering to get online simply because I couldn't, and I really didn't have the time to take care of my own group online. This was the first group I've ever created myself, believe it or not. Of course it was a collective effort, but it was the first group I could ever actually have the benefit of helping create by my own ideas.
When Risen Revolution collapsed back in 2015, I was a bit devastated, but relieved. I didn't want the burden on my shoulders any longer knowing that my group was failing. Maybe I was so scared of it failing that I dipped out when things got too tough. I left when things started getting bumpy, and I left it at the hands of the rest of my staff to take care of.
I regretted it.
I regret ever leaving my group to crash and burn, and to fall inactive. Perhaps I feel the same guilt now. Even though this time around it is different, I still feel the same guilt I felt back then. I still feel a crippling and deteriorating pain that makes me want to pull my hair out because I feel helpless. I started Risen Revolution up again because I wanted the community to thrive again. I know the game isn't like how it used to be, but I had hoped this time around would involve less drama, and more comfort in knowing people could feel happy in my community.
I felt as if I let everyone down again.
When the group was originally left out of my hands, I felt as if I let everyone down. I felt that I disappointed everyone by leaving it be. I feel the same way now -- I feel like I've let the group down and the community down. People have left, left and right, dropping like flies because they don't favor one thing, hate another thing, and don't like this person and don't enjoy that. I know you cannot make everyone happy, but I've been struggling with keeping a decent amount happy. I restarted Risen Revolution again after being questioned, picked at, and slandered. Why did I do it? For the community. I brought people back from quitting the game, only to rejoice in a splendid RP community in order to have fun. I was never a good leader, nor was I ever a great one. I was lucky, if I'm being honest. I was lucky to have gathered so many friends from over the years to join me in extending many groups in ways that I could only dream about. My success was based on luck, not because of any skill or wit or to be wise in my endeavors. I was simply lucky with my choices.
I have been a horrible leader, unable to make everyone as happy as they should in the environment that I set out. I am disappointed in myself mainly because I've had to deal with the slander, the backlash, people acting as if they can determine the fate of my group because of the choice my members wished to have. I let people walk all over me from beginning to end, and I've let people become disappointed. I still feel the guilt, and I feel as if I've disappointed every single one of you. I was never a good leader, and I've never proved myself to be. The only manageable skill I have is the ability to make friends, an that's how I got here. Though, I can never maintain a group for long, before I start to become a disappointment.
So I apologize to all of you, for having to deal with me as a leader. I apologize if my decisions have affected you in a negative way. If your friends have left because of my decisions or because of me, I am sorry for them too. I am sorry if I have disappointed anyone with how I ran the group, or if you think I made a terrible decision somewhere down the line. I am sorry if Risen Revolution was not what you anticipated to be, nor what you desired. I am sorry I could not dedicate the time to the group as I had wanted, and that led you to possibly no longer having the motivation to remain active.
However, I do wish to thank you.
I thank all of you for being kind, for being sweet and for being there from the beginning, from the middle, or now what is present. I thank you for attempting to make do of what you have right now, and I appreciate the constant participation from all of you. Not all groups last long much anymore on FH unfortunately, but I am hoping RR can last a little while, or maybe even longer if something doesn't work. I will always try and make things work. I thank you for being so helpful, and for making Risen Revolution what it is, and what I've wanted it to be.
I'm just sorry if I've let you all down in any way. I am hoping RR can thrive for a long time.
Thank you,
-Tulonasigo/Thanatos
I felt this should be a bit more formal than my usual updates. All humor aside, I should probably make a statement.
As many of you know, or at least some of you, Risen Revolution was a group made back in 2014 after the drafting of Red ReVerence. I had to create Risen Revolution in order to keep the community up, to surpass the judgement of previous staff and to avoid conflict. I could not and was no longer allowed to run Red ReVerence due to a problem with staff.
After I created Risen Revolution, everything was how I pictured it. Many of you may have known me as Thanatos, a name that was thoughtfully recognized back then. However, due to my negligence of the group and leaving it in the hands of the rest of my staff, the group spiraled into nothingness. I remained as a site administrator for a long time, not bothering to get online simply because I couldn't, and I really didn't have the time to take care of my own group online. This was the first group I've ever created myself, believe it or not. Of course it was a collective effort, but it was the first group I could ever actually have the benefit of helping create by my own ideas.
When Risen Revolution collapsed back in 2015, I was a bit devastated, but relieved. I didn't want the burden on my shoulders any longer knowing that my group was failing. Maybe I was so scared of it failing that I dipped out when things got too tough. I left when things started getting bumpy, and I left it at the hands of the rest of my staff to take care of.
I regretted it.
I regret ever leaving my group to crash and burn, and to fall inactive. Perhaps I feel the same guilt now. Even though this time around it is different, I still feel the same guilt I felt back then. I still feel a crippling and deteriorating pain that makes me want to pull my hair out because I feel helpless. I started Risen Revolution up again because I wanted the community to thrive again. I know the game isn't like how it used to be, but I had hoped this time around would involve less drama, and more comfort in knowing people could feel happy in my community.
I felt as if I let everyone down again.
When the group was originally left out of my hands, I felt as if I let everyone down. I felt that I disappointed everyone by leaving it be. I feel the same way now -- I feel like I've let the group down and the community down. People have left, left and right, dropping like flies because they don't favor one thing, hate another thing, and don't like this person and don't enjoy that. I know you cannot make everyone happy, but I've been struggling with keeping a decent amount happy. I restarted Risen Revolution again after being questioned, picked at, and slandered. Why did I do it? For the community. I brought people back from quitting the game, only to rejoice in a splendid RP community in order to have fun. I was never a good leader, nor was I ever a great one. I was lucky, if I'm being honest. I was lucky to have gathered so many friends from over the years to join me in extending many groups in ways that I could only dream about. My success was based on luck, not because of any skill or wit or to be wise in my endeavors. I was simply lucky with my choices.
I have been a horrible leader, unable to make everyone as happy as they should in the environment that I set out. I am disappointed in myself mainly because I've had to deal with the slander, the backlash, people acting as if they can determine the fate of my group because of the choice my members wished to have. I let people walk all over me from beginning to end, and I've let people become disappointed. I still feel the guilt, and I feel as if I've disappointed every single one of you. I was never a good leader, and I've never proved myself to be. The only manageable skill I have is the ability to make friends, an that's how I got here. Though, I can never maintain a group for long, before I start to become a disappointment.
So I apologize to all of you, for having to deal with me as a leader. I apologize if my decisions have affected you in a negative way. If your friends have left because of my decisions or because of me, I am sorry for them too. I am sorry if I have disappointed anyone with how I ran the group, or if you think I made a terrible decision somewhere down the line. I am sorry if Risen Revolution was not what you anticipated to be, nor what you desired. I am sorry I could not dedicate the time to the group as I had wanted, and that led you to possibly no longer having the motivation to remain active.
However, I do wish to thank you.
I thank all of you for being kind, for being sweet and for being there from the beginning, from the middle, or now what is present. I thank you for attempting to make do of what you have right now, and I appreciate the constant participation from all of you. Not all groups last long much anymore on FH unfortunately, but I am hoping RR can last a little while, or maybe even longer if something doesn't work. I will always try and make things work. I thank you for being so helpful, and for making Risen Revolution what it is, and what I've wanted it to be.
I'm just sorry if I've let you all down in any way. I am hoping RR can thrive for a long time.
Thank you,
-Tulonasigo/Thanatos